Always in Me

I held on tight to something with no name Prayed in silence while you walked your own flame No fight as heavy as love that stays While knowing that distance is what remains I saw our life in shards and scattered light Moments of warmth, then the coldest night I loved you with all I couldn’t yet give And you… you were the reason I wanted to live But I have to let you go, though I still reach for you in my sleep I smile while my heart quietly weeps You are the one I will never erase And loving you sometimes means letting go for the hope of grace We walked through walls no one else could see Searching for silence that might set us free Old wounds screaming, fears loud and wild But still, in your gaze, I felt like a child We were fire and sea, darkness and dawn Not always safe, but never gone I wanted to keep you, not to confine Now I move on, but you’re still part of mine I have to let you go, though I call your name in my dreams And wonder if it had to be this extreme You are the pulse beneath my skin Even as you fade from my days — you remain my what if, my might have been I carry you quietly, in words left unsaid In an empty bed, in the rain overhead Your name is a prayer, no guilt, no plea Just a still love you, whispered softly in me I have to let you go, for you, for me, for the light to return But you’re still the verse in every song I yearn The love of my life, though you’re not by my side My heart knows your place — and that won’t subside Always in me Always in me